two months off lexapro

 I read somewhere that it takes way longer than usual to get off this drug-

like 90 days , so i could still be going through withdrawal.

its hard to tell when you feel like you are being bashed around 

under the waves of life. 

I dont think I am having symptoms anymore though, which is good!

I have some energy back so its back to getting rid of my clutter.

One video i watched spoke about something i deal with when it comes 

to all these possessions and why i keep them...

She spoke of what your possessions say to you- 

my exercise bike chastised me for what an expensive well made bike 

it was and how I used to ride it every day.

my airconditioner cost 300.00 , my 100.00 nikes i never wore etc.

The items spoke of the money i wasted.

Then she spoke of letting go of our 'fantasy' self. 

the person you imagined you were going to be when you bought stuff.

I was going to be the motorcycle girl, knitter, the doll maker, the quilter, the hiker, the

Boho hippy woman, the stylish thin woman, ...

 OMG SO many things.

I constantly change the hobbies or person I want to be , do it for a while and

then have to get rid of everything. 

I also have things from my father i need to pass on.

People talk about "death cleaning" = getting rid of your crap now so people

dont have to deal with it when you pass. I am now of the age to do it for

that reason too. 

and so i sit here wasting another morning away lol

perhaps what I need to do is focus on the items i have enjoyed through the 

decades - I like antiques. 

I only have a few items as favorite so thats good right?

Give yourself permission to unburden without guilt.