The Dark Ages

 Called as such because there was a supposed pause in written history.

I think that in the future there will be little documentation of life

during this computer time. Paper and stone tends to last longer than

metal and needs no power or extinct software to read it. 

I guess we should be thankful considering all the 'diarrhea of 

the mouth' people seem to have on the internet.

But what of the people who will wonder about our stupidity 

towards our planet and what it was like back when the earth 

was in its first throws of overheating... There will be few

records left behind.

What if i told you that after my second vaccination I felt deep in

my soul that I had made a life changing mistake.... 

I havent felt this deeply sorry towards my body since I had foot surgery and 

my foot was 'crying out' - 

no, not in pain, but shock at what I had done to it...

There is nothing to be done and no one to talk to except 

antivaxxers which i refuse to do.  

Edit - To be more clear, my sister is against ALL vaccines and 

spreads propaganda continuously. 

Ones mortality is something kept in a closed closet.

This virus blew open the door for me. 

As a human who has had suicidal ideation and multiple

attempts since childhood I found this to be truly eye opening.

I had never felt bone deep fear of the end of life and how 

unprepared I was as far as things left behind. 

Urgency vs procrastination is a heck of a battle especially

with chronic depression sitting on top like a thick heavy blanket.

My damn bloodwork came back with raised liver numbers.

They have always been perfect. 

I purchased a dining table. So strange to buy something 

for the future. I mean here I am getting rid of things 

and purchasing more. i dont understand myself.