Dreams

Night before last I dreamed my bf and i had gone on an airplane ride being flown
by my father and we lost control.
I found myself sitting in a hospital or nursing home.

As I sat in the nursing home(?)  the anxiety built in my chest till I asked outloud
where is my father??? and someone replied 'he's right here' and a stranger leaned
forward.
I said 'thats not him!' and i told my bf  to go look for him.
Hours and hours went by.... I left the room and went looking for both of them.
Looking and calling
Looking and calling
the anxiety in my chest like it would burst.
A day went by and both gone.
I traveled the long distance back home wondering if i could get the strength to
file a missing persons report.

Last night's dream-

I had been called by a doctor to come to my father's aid.
I arrived after traveling a great distance to a
white room.
There sitting upright on the bed was my father crying inconsolably.
The doctor said something to me and I pretended
 to brightly say to my father "I'm here !"
He stopped crying and looked at me,
I crawled onto the bed and kissed him and snugged him saying
Everything will be alright. I looked at the Dr and he had tears in his eyes at
whatever it was i had said.
I got back in my vehicle and waved both arms out the window to portray
the " happiness" and i saw my dad lay back on the bed relaxed. 



--- i know these dreams are because of my fathers passing a year and a half go
and the nagging life questions that come along in waves sometimes more strongly .