Insidious Anxiety

I had no idea that anxiety was creeping slowly deeper and deeper into my body.
 Having lived with chronic depression all my life I know what that looks like.
 Normal anxiety spells during life changes and break ups are expected and identified.
But this was so slow, and physical .
It was creeping into my body.
The hormone of adrenaline was in my brain and still is.
A strange electronic over stimulated full feeling.
Pulsing tinnitus and a strange weakening of my legs.
I thought I had a pinched nerve because all of a sudden
my leg would give out and not respond, I would drag forward after much effort.
After my father went into the hospital and I was in ER with him
doing the nurse thing, I was battling forward through fear.
Then it happened, complete collapse.
Absolute disconnect.
I don't remember much, except that my Anam Cara called my sister
and told her to take over my father's care.
Still quite spiritually and physically weak-
unbelievable how insidiously this happened .....
well, maybe not.